aduh...sumbody help me pleaseee.... apa sih obatnya ga mood belajar??? huhuhuhu... okei2... let's see.. ini uda rabo malem...uda jam 10..plg in 2-3 hours uda ngantuk abis dan bobok... besok pagi2..mesti cabut ke city.. urusin post office ama ke melb central..meaning..dr pagi ampe around jam 2 siang uda ga bs belajar.. js tinggal stgh hari.. examnya hari jumat tuh PAGI nak.... tolong ya..sadar nak... PAGI... uda ga mgkn mo ngafalin pagi2 gitu...berarti bebek chayankkkkk....belajarnya tinggal stgh hari plus 2-3 jam malem ini...hmmm... ada 5 question tuh..belom dibikin semua... (aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)... let alone dihafalin (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA,......)

 

ada segepok teori yg ga jelas apaan... (gile..knp sih harus ada nobel finance segala??? bikin org makin tergila2 nyiptain teori ga jelas aje... grrrrrr) belom lg product yg entah ada berapa ratus biji itu... (hiperbola bgt sih...tp tetep aje....BUANYAK BOKKKK.....)... okei2.... BELAJARRRRRRRRRRRR...................

 

aduh gile...males bgt deh ak...wats wrong coba...emang dr sono nya begini sih... hoho...tp asli deh nih subjek susahnya amit2...gini masi mo master in finance...apaan coba..aduh2....fokus dulu... exam... AFX3021..RISK FINANCE..jumat 9.30... harus dapet D..ga mo tau..pokoknya D.... klo bs HD..tp itu sih ngimpi abizzz.... uda lah D aja cukup deh... BELAJAR OIIIII........

 

serius bekkkk...belajar....huhuhuhu...okei2...belajar2....

 

PS: moga2 ga ada another blog entry for tonite..or tomolo,...pokoke sampe mari exam deh...

finally...I made up my mind....dunno if that's the right decision..the more I think about it the more I got confused and the more it scares me... klo dipikir2 mulu kyaknya ga abis2 deh stresnya... so drpd stresss ga entek2, mending make decision (moga2 bener rek decision'e...) then move on... I got 4 papers in the next 2 weeks and a report to finish..gotta focus on them first.. apalg tis semester..huhu..bolos mulu...gawat deh pokoke..

 

also, i need to organise a bit nih..kamarku wes kyak kapal pecah...dr td dibersihin koq ga bersih2 kyake.. hikxxx... namanya juga abis stres berat.. cant be bothered la to tidy things up.. need to start eat healthy too..or perhaps at least start eating food, not chips or chocolate....hahahaha... dunno deh..my life tis semester kacau balau.. huik..huik..huik.. dikit2 sakit.. dikit2 pusing lah..sakit perut la..kyaaaa.... i need bik sul..!!!!! aduh jd pengen makan rawon'e bik sul rek.. trus2...belom selese resolution'e...mesti bobok yg bener..haha... kadang sehari ga bobok..besoknya bubuk pagi siang malem....wes pokoke amburadul kabeh wes..

 

sudah2..cukup bek..beresin tuh assignmen yg salah bikin..huik..huik.. assignmenku salah bikin pek...untung ae ryan nanya..coba enggak, mboh wes piye iku...uda ah..bikin assg dulu..

 

bebeq

 

again......pusinkkkkkkk.....hahaha..

everytime i write blogs, isinya pusink terus...stress terus..kesannya kasian amat hidupku....hahaha...

actually, i wanted to write lines and lines on why i'm stress berat at the moment...but i think this time..i better write lines and lines on why i should be happy with my life at the moment.... hope fully i can manage a lot of lines..hehhe...so here we go...why should i be happy now????

 

1. i'm still breathing..alive..have two legs, two arms, two eyes and everything that comes with the package..and all are working damn well... (except my brain at the moment which is at the stage of mild damage as a result of too much studying...wakakaka... so bullshit hah??)

 

2. got many friends..maybe not hundreds..or not even 50..but i have few friends which i can trust even with my life...hmm...guess i'm pretty lucky for that...

 

3. my parents are still together... and i have a brother that i luv sooo much... tat means..i still have a family.. not a perfect one, but good enough for me... 

 

4. i have couple of bucks in my wallet...a saving account and mom's credit card... so i wont have to worry about wat to eat tomorrow or even the day after

 

5. i'm living in a nice and a damn expensive apartment... so i got a place i can come home to... ^^

 

6. i got jobs..part time..but earn me enough to satisfy my crave for shopping...wakakkaka...

 

7. i got a pretty smart brain.. at least ppl says i do..and it has helped me through 2.5 years of college..so another exams period... i should manage la...

 

8. mm...i'm starting to slow down with my list.... ooo...i got a SAPI...hahaha..gotta treasure him for sure.. ekekekke...so kawai...

 

9. I'm not that religious..but i have a faith...i believe that God will take care of me... no need to know more than that..hihihi... i guess that's enough to get me through my life.. at least it worked before..

 

10. i'm having problems now..big one..but it's not a life or death situation...so i guess i'm still much luckier than some people..

 

11. i got laptop and printer at home...am i lucky for that?? i guess so..cos i know some ppl have to stay in the library till late to do assignment..while i can do it here in my cozy bed..with sapi on my side...which makes me become lazier..but anyway, i should be grateful for that...

 

okay..i guess i quit trying to prolong this list..anyway..does that make me feel better?? hahaha... i think so.. it's up to me to see the cup half empty or half full... ^^

wanna see it as half full from now on..

 

bebe

 

cant believe it..week 12 already.. 2 weeks left and then final exam.. meaning my days as student is less than a month... >.< I know doing assg sucks..exams are even worse..but now that i am only a month away from being 'free', why on earth am I scared??? hahahaha...tat explains i guess....being a student is not tat bad after all... all i need to do is study and get a good result and tat's about it..

 

however, before i can worry about after school life, gotta worry bout passing my subjcts rite?? keke.. got 2 reports to finish..buz eco and risk transfer..shouldnt be tat bad these two... i'm starting with buz eco already (so proud of myself!!) and risk transfer...mmm..no comment yet..hahaha...but the EXAMS...!!! aaaaa.. branding..have no idea watsoever about tis subject...well, wat to expect if i only came to lect twice this semester..!! now i started to regret it..  risk transfer.. dun have the text..haha..better borrow it from rmit asap before it's all gone.. risk finance...need to pray lah for this one..wakakkakaa.... and then buz eco..this one is mar2 responsibility...hahaha...so can relax a bit lah for tis one... hohoho...

 

last semester...i need at least a straight D.... wakaka.. aza aza fighting!!!

 

bebe

tell u what...most (or some should i say??) ppl said i'm a shopaholic...which is definitely not the case!!!! not that i mind being one though...hohohoho...after all shopping is always be cheaper than psychiatrics rite??? anyhow.. here's the facts... i havent shopped ever since tika flew back to Bali..which was somewhere in early August.. okay...i admit before that i shop a lil bit too much... but then i didnt buy practically anything (as far as i could remember...) for a whole month!!!!! i'm pretty sure i didnt buy anything since then until last week.. but again, it's my bday..need to buy a gift for myself..and myer was on sale..hehe.. so i got myself a nice sunglasses...it's spring afterall.. i definitely need one..!!!!

 

i kinda confuse why i write this blog...just been thinking about my shopping habit i guess.. i still have a long list of needed and wanted items..and i start to buy expensive stuff lately.. (rachel will definitely kill me for this... cannot tahan..hoho) but at the end of the day, i think i'm not a shopaholic whatsoever... i just love to shop... hahaha... 

 

confused bebe..

and i'm hungry as well plus havent had enough sleep lately...

I guess that should explain my blurred point of view here.. 

it's 10.56 pm...sept the 17th.. in one hour and 4 minutes i'll be 20 yrs old... aihhhh.....feel so old already.. already 20.. well, not tat old actually.. i'm ONLY 20 when i'm graduating from uni..how's tat?? hohoho... now that makes me feel so young...hahaha...always work everytime!! ^^ but the next thing i know, i wonder how the hell a 20 yrs old should work and start earning $$ and becoming financially independent and all that crap?? kyaaaaaa...... shouldnt have playing smart and finish uni this fast.... hahahaha.... so the law of relativity really holds isnt it?? 

 

I guess it's better to start living without those numbers..19...20..it's just a number after all.. cos the last year..since sept 18th'05 until this very minute, i believe i've seen and grown much more than 'just' a year.. for God has been so good to me and let me live the past year.. I've witnessed how miracle does happens, how even the impossible is possible, how different things turn out to be and how easy things changed... still amazed up until now, still cant believe it.. ^^

 

bebeQ

 

 

 

sodara2...another last minute assignmen...wakakaka....parah deh... due tomorrow afternoon sih...tp masi lmyn banyak dan ga tau mo nulis apa pula...kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............skipped class tis morning for two weeks in a row gara2 muales bgt...haha..tp juga pengen mbikin assignmen sih.. mulia ga tuh?? hohoho...klo ga bs beneran gak selese nih.. ntar kerja lagi ampe jam 9 malem.. trus besok kerja pula for lunch..arrghhh... need to review my timetable kayaknya.. kerjanya buanyak bgt...wakaka...-->much more fun sih!!.... jalan2nya juga ga berhenti2... nonton animenya apalagi.. --> aduh pengen pinjem one piece rek.. tobat bek!!!!! huhuhu...ga bisa...wakakak... tau ah..after all, as gary said, learn to work underpressure kan not bad... ^^ hihihi...menghibur diri bgt deh...

 

back to my assignmen yg super mbencekno plus ga maksud... >.<

asline sih ga separah itu sih..tp klo last minute abis gini, ya pasti parah...hhauahuahua...

 

bebeq yg ga stres2 amat...dah biasa...^^

feeling so grey today...dunno why.. maybe time finally slaps me and wakes me up.. warning me that it's time to make a choice..and i feel like i'm about to make a huge mistake in my life soon.. dunno what to do next.. dunno what i want..dunno what i'm capable of doing..dun even know what to think rite now.... >.< 

now i know why people make so many stupid mistake in their life..maybe bcos they were in a same position as me now.. dun have a tiny idea of what next and it feels like shit.. feeling so weak..so tired..so worn out.. so soul-less.. i've been through a lot in my life and i used to think that wateva happen next it cant be worse.. but someone reminded before that what comes next will be worse than before and he's so damn right.. hope i get through this one as well.. after all, if it doesnt kill, it will only make u stronger rite..?!

 

bebeQ

hmmm...melbourne tambah rame...!!!! tambah seru..haha...palagi shopping'e...wadoh...sampek bokek berat...hiksss...

btw..satch lg final sale..kmrn beli hem buat mami...asline sih bagus bgt ak pake tuh kemeja..tp buat sdkt2 nyogok mami..beliin buat dia aja lah..

 

on my skul life...(feel sodok guilty nih...i'm in melb for the degree tp ga keroso sekolah blas in the last few weeks...hahaha...) buanyak assignment due!!! ga banyak2 bgt sih benere...tp considering ak biasanya ga pernah bikin assignmen..ya terasa buanyak..hehe.. bayangin deh.. 2 tutorial Q (including several case studies!!), trus draft assg bus eco yg ga tau maksudnya apaan, pluss... my lovely RISK MANAGEMENT assignmen yg puanjang...dan mbulet...dan wakeh.. tp lmyn seru...hehehe..

 

wes ah...still have 2000 words to write..ga tau mo nulis apa lagi... due this wednesday..moga2 keburu deh... hohoho...

 

bebeQ

i'm back again in the lovely city of Melbourne... ada bbrp new things that i missed out during my Purdue time..though nothing major.. couple of new stores and restaurants in the city.. assesories closed down (and i missed the closing down sales of course..huhuhu).. crown looks the same..slight changes in greco though i think they serve crappier coffee now... ticket inspection are too much nowadays..got inspected at least once a day... *how come connex waste sooo much money for those inspector's wages..they could have upgraded the service instead..* Monash Caulfiled looks the same..they have a new building but i havent checked it out.. And at the moment, eveything is on SALE...damn.. i hate sale.. too tempting!! havent bought anything yet though.. just a tiny coin purse from FCUK.. ==i'm soo proud of myself== hohoho....

 

Been eating out too much lately... eating all the food that i thought i missed but in fact they taste just like that..nothing special.. hahaha.. same with chips.. smiths and kettle.. but again, they dont really taste that special.. hahaha.. weird.. but amazingly..i lost weight..  oh ya..i just realised that joojoo is the nicest korean resto i ever tried.. (trying is not really the word when i eat it almost every week back in purdue). miss tat now..!!

 

havent finished unpacked..and havent tried to finish them... too lazy to get organised.. havent read any unit outlines.. havent got any idea watsoever of wat i'll be doing tis semester.. wat kind of assg..when is it due.. when and where the classes are.. etc..etc..etc.. simply..i just dont feel like going to school again.. somehow feeling soooo damn lazy.. hahaha.. plus..i still got huge pile of clothes and stuff sitting in anton's living room.. anyway, thx sooo much ton for lending me the living room.. dunno wat would happen if u didnt help me..

 

next week is week 3 already.. i start working part time again.. and i guess there will assignment due soon.. anyway, wanna get a nap now.. then probably start reading unit outlines..

 

xoxo

beBe

 

 

 

 

baru nyampe dr bali..spent weekends there with mar2.. shopping2 again (of course!!!)..

now i'm getting worried that i will turn into shopaholic soon...huhuhuhu......

tomorrow got a meeting ga tau sih jadi ga..males juga meeting..abis pagi bener...mengganggu jam tidur org aje..

aih soccernet dodol amat sih..dibuka ga bisa2...bete....

england kalah..huhuhuhu.... sedih deh..sampe ampir nangis..huhuhua.....

next week kyaknya mo ke shanghai..shopping again...auhauahuahuahu....

the week after, going back to melb deh...

amazingly, i'm not interested at all... dunno lah...kinda weird...

apalagi mbayangin melb yg lg dingin2...aih..males pwollllll........

uda ah...mo nyoba mbukain soccernet lg..knp sih tuh web tiba2 nge hang...grrrr.... 

 

how i wish time could just stop.. so that i'll be here longer....

how i wish i could be stronger...so that i dont have to cry on my sleep

how i wish i am wiser and braver.. so that i know which way to go..

how i wish i could just forget anything..leave everything behind..

how i wish i never had to feel this pain..

how i wish..i could just stop wishing..

leaving purdue in two and a half weeks... soooo sad..... hixxxx.... it's been an amazing semester... a semester that i would never ever expect.. God is in fact so good...hahahaha... cant believe i have to go half way around the world just to discover such as simple truth... i feel so stupid..ahuahuhau...

 

anyway, just screwed my 490N exam this morning.. and of course it was bcos of stupid stupid mistakes... as always..  i guess i have to learn to fall...ouch.. it's gonna be painful mate..

 

missing my home.. though i dont know if there's any place i can call home.. i just miss having a 'home'.. and going back there..

 

 

it's been quite a long time since i stressed out...and now... STRES...!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaa.........

kepalaku pusink terus rek rasane... ga ngapa2in ya pusing...tidur pusing.....ga tidur tambah pusing.. makan pusing..ga makan pusing dan laper... aaaaaaaaaaa................ somebody help donk.... nvm.. wes ga tau nulis opoan iki... pusing2...pusing2... aaaa....hiks... kangen koko lagi...monyong...dia pasti lg jalan2 dgn mobil barunya yg tdk mungkin bisa ak setir..kurjar...!!!! adooh...adohh...adooh..... apa sih transaction cost itu..?? by the time i got done with this @#$%#$# paper... mar...u owe me a lot yah.. emang cuman 1250 nih paper, tp susahnya amit2 bokk... awas lu ga traktir di 3 resto pilihanku.... inget... ying thai, greco ama shuji sushi...

ahhh..uda ah...nulisnya makin aneh2 aja...

pusinggg....tuink...tuink....