it's 10.56 pm...sept the 17th.. in one hour and 4 minutes i'll be 20 yrs old... aihhhh.....feel so old already.. already 20.. well, not tat old actually.. i'm ONLY 20 when i'm graduating from uni..how's tat?? hohoho... now that makes me feel so young...hahaha...always work everytime!! ^^ but the next thing i know, i wonder how the hell a 20 yrs old should work and start earning $$ and becoming financially independent and all that crap?? kyaaaaaa...... shouldnt have playing smart and finish uni this fast.... hahahaha.... so the law of relativity really holds isnt it?? 

 

I guess it's better to start living without those numbers..19...20..it's just a number after all.. cos the last year..since sept 18th'05 until this very minute, i believe i've seen and grown much more than 'just' a year.. for God has been so good to me and let me live the past year.. I've witnessed how miracle does happens, how even the impossible is possible, how different things turn out to be and how easy things changed... still amazed up until now, still cant believe it.. ^^

 

bebeQ

 

 

 

sodara2...another last minute assignmen...wakakaka....parah deh... due tomorrow afternoon sih...tp masi lmyn banyak dan ga tau mo nulis apa pula...kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............skipped class tis morning for two weeks in a row gara2 muales bgt...haha..tp juga pengen mbikin assignmen sih.. mulia ga tuh?? hohoho...klo ga bs beneran gak selese nih.. ntar kerja lagi ampe jam 9 malem.. trus besok kerja pula for lunch..arrghhh... need to review my timetable kayaknya.. kerjanya buanyak bgt...wakaka...-->much more fun sih!!.... jalan2nya juga ga berhenti2... nonton animenya apalagi.. --> aduh pengen pinjem one piece rek.. tobat bek!!!!! huhuhu...ga bisa...wakakak... tau ah..after all, as gary said, learn to work underpressure kan not bad... ^^ hihihi...menghibur diri bgt deh...

 

back to my assignmen yg super mbencekno plus ga maksud... >.<

asline sih ga separah itu sih..tp klo last minute abis gini, ya pasti parah...hhauahuahua...

 

bebeq yg ga stres2 amat...dah biasa...^^

feeling so grey today...dunno why.. maybe time finally slaps me and wakes me up.. warning me that it's time to make a choice..and i feel like i'm about to make a huge mistake in my life soon.. dunno what to do next.. dunno what i want..dunno what i'm capable of doing..dun even know what to think rite now.... >.< 

now i know why people make so many stupid mistake in their life..maybe bcos they were in a same position as me now.. dun have a tiny idea of what next and it feels like shit.. feeling so weak..so tired..so worn out.. so soul-less.. i've been through a lot in my life and i used to think that wateva happen next it cant be worse.. but someone reminded before that what comes next will be worse than before and he's so damn right.. hope i get through this one as well.. after all, if it doesnt kill, it will only make u stronger rite..?!

 

bebeQ

hmmm...melbourne tambah rame...!!!! tambah seru..haha...palagi shopping'e...wadoh...sampek bokek berat...hiksss...

btw..satch lg final sale..kmrn beli hem buat mami...asline sih bagus bgt ak pake tuh kemeja..tp buat sdkt2 nyogok mami..beliin buat dia aja lah..

 

on my skul life...(feel sodok guilty nih...i'm in melb for the degree tp ga keroso sekolah blas in the last few weeks...hahaha...) buanyak assignment due!!! ga banyak2 bgt sih benere...tp considering ak biasanya ga pernah bikin assignmen..ya terasa buanyak..hehe.. bayangin deh.. 2 tutorial Q (including several case studies!!), trus draft assg bus eco yg ga tau maksudnya apaan, pluss... my lovely RISK MANAGEMENT assignmen yg puanjang...dan mbulet...dan wakeh.. tp lmyn seru...hehehe..

 

wes ah...still have 2000 words to write..ga tau mo nulis apa lagi... due this wednesday..moga2 keburu deh... hohoho...

 

bebeQ

i'm back again in the lovely city of Melbourne... ada bbrp new things that i missed out during my Purdue time..though nothing major.. couple of new stores and restaurants in the city.. assesories closed down (and i missed the closing down sales of course..huhuhu).. crown looks the same..slight changes in greco though i think they serve crappier coffee now... ticket inspection are too much nowadays..got inspected at least once a day... *how come connex waste sooo much money for those inspector's wages..they could have upgraded the service instead..* Monash Caulfiled looks the same..they have a new building but i havent checked it out.. And at the moment, eveything is on SALE...damn.. i hate sale.. too tempting!! havent bought anything yet though.. just a tiny coin purse from FCUK.. ==i'm soo proud of myself== hohoho....

 

Been eating out too much lately... eating all the food that i thought i missed but in fact they taste just like that..nothing special.. hahaha.. same with chips.. smiths and kettle.. but again, they dont really taste that special.. hahaha.. weird.. but amazingly..i lost weight..  oh ya..i just realised that joojoo is the nicest korean resto i ever tried.. (trying is not really the word when i eat it almost every week back in purdue). miss tat now..!!

 

havent finished unpacked..and havent tried to finish them... too lazy to get organised.. havent read any unit outlines.. havent got any idea watsoever of wat i'll be doing tis semester.. wat kind of assg..when is it due.. when and where the classes are.. etc..etc..etc.. simply..i just dont feel like going to school again.. somehow feeling soooo damn lazy.. hahaha.. plus..i still got huge pile of clothes and stuff sitting in anton's living room.. anyway, thx sooo much ton for lending me the living room.. dunno wat would happen if u didnt help me..

 

next week is week 3 already.. i start working part time again.. and i guess there will assignment due soon.. anyway, wanna get a nap now.. then probably start reading unit outlines..

 

xoxo

beBe

 

 

 

 

baru nyampe dr bali..spent weekends there with mar2.. shopping2 again (of course!!!)..

now i'm getting worried that i will turn into shopaholic soon...huhuhuhu......

tomorrow got a meeting ga tau sih jadi ga..males juga meeting..abis pagi bener...mengganggu jam tidur org aje..

aih soccernet dodol amat sih..dibuka ga bisa2...bete....

england kalah..huhuhuhu.... sedih deh..sampe ampir nangis..huhuhua.....

next week kyaknya mo ke shanghai..shopping again...auhauahuahuahu....

the week after, going back to melb deh...

amazingly, i'm not interested at all... dunno lah...kinda weird...

apalagi mbayangin melb yg lg dingin2...aih..males pwollllll........

uda ah...mo nyoba mbukain soccernet lg..knp sih tuh web tiba2 nge hang...grrrr.... 

 

how i wish time could just stop.. so that i'll be here longer....

how i wish i could be stronger...so that i dont have to cry on my sleep

how i wish i am wiser and braver.. so that i know which way to go..

how i wish i could just forget anything..leave everything behind..

how i wish i never had to feel this pain..

how i wish..i could just stop wishing..

leaving purdue in two and a half weeks... soooo sad..... hixxxx.... it's been an amazing semester... a semester that i would never ever expect.. God is in fact so good...hahahaha... cant believe i have to go half way around the world just to discover such as simple truth... i feel so stupid..ahuahuhau...

 

anyway, just screwed my 490N exam this morning.. and of course it was bcos of stupid stupid mistakes... as always..  i guess i have to learn to fall...ouch.. it's gonna be painful mate..

 

missing my home.. though i dont know if there's any place i can call home.. i just miss having a 'home'.. and going back there..

 

 

it's been quite a long time since i stressed out...and now... STRES...!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaa.........

kepalaku pusink terus rek rasane... ga ngapa2in ya pusing...tidur pusing.....ga tidur tambah pusing.. makan pusing..ga makan pusing dan laper... aaaaaaaaaaa................ somebody help donk.... nvm.. wes ga tau nulis opoan iki... pusing2...pusing2... aaaa....hiks... kangen koko lagi...monyong...dia pasti lg jalan2 dgn mobil barunya yg tdk mungkin bisa ak setir..kurjar...!!!! adooh...adohh...adooh..... apa sih transaction cost itu..?? by the time i got done with this @#$%#$# paper... mar...u owe me a lot yah.. emang cuman 1250 nih paper, tp susahnya amit2 bokk... awas lu ga traktir di 3 resto pilihanku.... inget... ying thai, greco ama shuji sushi...

ahhh..uda ah...nulisnya makin aneh2 aja...

pusinggg....tuink...tuink....